第十一章、Christmas Gift

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The next day I get a short mail, he tells me he gave the last economic law lesson to his students, and went over the so-called emphasis points under strong plead by them. He loves all his students, and he knows the exact feeling of them because he also did the same thing on his computer class yesterday afternoon. But his teacher did nothing special except for reviewing the total book thoroughly. So he can relax from the lessons-preparation and rest for a while then work for his own study, and of course, to accept the cash next week, then he can buy some presents for his parents and himself as well. He is a bit tired, therefore he and his roommates watched a scaring scientific movie last night, which described an alien originated from the overcast of radiation, just like a worm, disgusting, and eating people, the typical Hollywood way to make movies. They all enjoyed it very much until the clock told him that it's time for sleep. He does admire me now, because I am enjoying my holiday, so I can select my own hobbies to relax. He is engaged to plan for the classmates ’ party to be held on this Saturday, everything seems smooth as they hoped.


62.

I think he is kind of depressed and unhappy when he wrote mail to me today. I can read it from his short mail. So I ask him why do not show it in the column of subject, only three symbols can draw a crying face. To me it seems that he likes crying, oh poor baby, I do not wish when we first meet he will put into my body and cry continually (but it is better than continuously).

In fact, in future I do wish to play the role of younger brother. I do not want to be responsible for so many things, and what's more I am not much of a leader, not like him, always do the social work. So he should be more authoritative than I can. I am glad to follow his suggestion even order. He must be laughing like a flower now, I wish so. Laughing is better than crying. I surrender to him, he can send me mails as frequently as he can, everyday I have to stay at lab, so it is easy for me to connect to the net. I really do not want him to feel unhappy for no reason. I remember I ever read a story several days ago, which is about two birds, they are a couple. When they stay in the same cage, of course it is their home, they never sing to each other, maybe they think it is not necessary. Until one day, by an accidence, the male bird die of a serious illness. Thus the female bird can not see her lover, she begins to sing. Maybe it is the most beautiful song that ever have in the world, but it is too late. Her lover, the male bird, can not here it any more. Maybe we are wrong. The male bird in the heaven can still hear it, and is crying in the heaven. Do not you think it is a little too late? So I do not want in future we will do such kind of regretful things, just ask him to forget what I said in last e-mail, I will sing the best song that I can everyday and try to make him happy.

I tell him that my life here is not so interesting as he thinks. I have no my own car now, so I seldom go out, always staying at school or apartment. On weekends, I can go to the gym to play basketball but still not so often. In the previous mails he ever mentioned that he was a poor match boy, and asked me if I can send him a Christmas gift, but he did not say clearly what he really wanted. I seldom send gifts to others so I do not know what he wanted. Well he is right, after he gets his stipend from the school he should buy some things for his parents, I just mail $2000 back home. And my parents have sent out the books to him, I wish he could receive them at the end of this semester. But I really do not want to force him to do anything for me, just do the things that he really likes doing, be a free boy, be a upright man, I wish in future become my little piggy. Go our own way, let others to say, to judge, to appreciate, even to be jealous. Wish him feel better and could show his smiling face to me next time.


63.

During those days he is happy for the money he earned by grading the self-study exam test papers. He got about RMB700, more than he had expected, that's exciting. So he bought himself a new album of Lin, zhixuan, a collection tape of his most popular songs including the famous "love song of the single". He also adds more money on his dinning credit card, enjoyed the big beef soup that night, and read the 21st century English newspaper as well. He is so glad to relax because before that rare money given to him, he almost goes bankrupt for a while. So now I can imagine the facial expression of him, but he wishes me not regarding him as a money-worshiper. He totally agrees with my opinion that he can mail to me while he is convenient and do not have to limit him when to write.

He is completely engaged to plan the final preparation of their Christmas party and the closing lesson of the other class for the undergraduates. Therefore, he will arrange the time more properly for us to receive mails so that I needn't stay at the lab all day long for him. And he tells me that I do not have to consider too much about the Christmas gift that he ever mentioned. That's just a joke, because he is a happy boy most of the time, and he just wants to convince that there is someone who loves him, the one who is caring about him as he casts all of him energy on him, that's the best gift. Of course, he is not a poor-match-boy as my imagination. So I should never bear it in mind that he is in drags and feels hungry and cold, then faint over on his own bed. He even threatens that I should never send any gifts to his university. He wants me to explain why I want to be the younger brother, or the wife in future, that's the question he seldom consider, so he feels wonder whether the role of us is very important to me and he wants to learn more about my opinion of that.

In the end he tells me something interesting. Yesterday afternoon, he invited his classmates out to play badminton, they did enjoy the game very much although his skill was terrible and the action was ridiculous, that's the kind of energy-consuming sport. They did not stopped for the supper until both of them lost the final strength to stand. When he got up this morning, he caught a sore hip and legs. Since he slept on the upper bed, so when he tried to get off, he couldn't help yelling, one of his dorm-mate joked :" are you bed-yelling?" Ha, he wants hit that guy but his sore hip and legs informed him that he had better sit down first. So he asked the classmates with whom he played the game how long they played yesterday, the boy explained that maybe they did the sports for more than 1 hour, the muscle must be stretched too much. And one of his roommates suggested him to look for a people to relieve his pain by patting and stepping on his poor hip. haha, damn it, they want him shouting to death. He thought I must be laughing off my teeth after reading that. In the end he does not forget to allure me with his words: It's time for me to take a shower tonight, the bathroom will be closed at 8:30. I have to go back, finding my new clothes out, then changing for the slippers, buying tickets, throwing all my clothes off, rushing into the bath-hall with naked body, and --- xixi, I hope I can easily find a stand.


64.

I am glad to know that he gets some money from our lovely motherland, and laugh at him that now he should know the goodness of socialism, also he should abide by the policy of our great country, especially the family planning policy, do not add burden to our motherland.

As to the reason that I want to play the role of younger brother or wife, there is no special cause. He does not have to be worried about it. I will not be the housewife, staying at home all day long and doing nothing. He should know I have no sound reason to stay at home, because I cannot bring offspring for him, I am a cock that cannot produce the egg, just like him. He ever tells me that he is the unique boy and he has the responsibility to bring the descendant for his family. So I want him to think it over before he decides to marry to me. What I mean is just he should do much more things that common husband should do to his wife, because I am a little introvert, not like he is more sociable. But I will not limit his action, if he wants to find fun outdoors with his friends, I would like to stay at home, I will not interfere with his activity, he could do anything that he wants to, I only wish we both happy.

I want to know his planning for the Christmas celebration, and wish he could enjoy it. But I feel very angry when I know he will go bankrupt and even have no money for food, oh poor piggy, I am suspicious whether he is really as fat as his description to me. I still remember in his last e-mail, he wants me to calculate his incomes with my hands and toes. Although I am not as clever as he is, I do make sure that he should keep a balance of his account. But now, every thing changes, he should tell me the truth. How did he spend all his salary even without enough money left for food? If he could not give me a good explanation, then I have to assume that he has an improper relationship with some girl or boy, I want him to tell me the truth, or else, I will find a way to punish him. I have not thought a good way to give him a lesson. Maybe in future I will control the economy, just like most of the wives nowadays in China do. I could imagine that he does not want to hand it in, hehe I will not force him to do anything, just hope that he could keep a clear mind, and would not let others sell him.

Today I have a Christmas party, too. I remember I ever tell him that there is one hosted by my department today. I join it in and enjoy myself. The food is delicious, especially the deserts, I like it very much. I really want to steal some and take them to him, but I try to control myself. I do not want to be taken as a thief. After dinner, I go to the gym and play basketball with some Chinese and American students, I perform well, just coming back to my best condition. I really wish one day I can show off my skill in front of him. Compared with me he is a lazy boy, only one hour practice of badminton makes him lose his face in his roommates, I feel shameful to have him as my bf. So I require him practice more, get up earlier, run around the tract everyday, first 800 meters, then increase gradually. I think I perform better than him in physical education. When I take the five-item tests of PE in college, my score is above 425. Maybe he ever listen to the joke, one couple often decide who will wash the dishes by running, whoever lag behind will have to do more housework. Now I think it is really a good method. I am sure I will win every time, then he has to clean the floor, wash the clothes, dusty the table, oh if he wants to know what I will do, of course I will not stand by and make him feel worse. I just sit in the sofa and read the newspaper or watch TV. It is fair, I run fast, as a husband he should feel shame to himself. But if he could practice from now on, it is not too late, after all he is two years younger that I, he still have chance.

From the records that he bought I know he likes those so called youth idol, so I tell him when I am young, although I am not much of a so-called handsome boy, I do not think I am worse than those idol. If he does not believe it, I will show him my photo, which is taken when I am only 18 years old. I do miss those days, without so many worries, be innocent, it is really the golden time of my life. But now, time and tide wait for no one, I feel old now, I can see the wrinkles on my face, the lost youth, I can not get it back. Now that he does not want me to mail any gift to him, then I have to send myself to him, wish he like it.



(to be continued)